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I don't know if anyone reads this.
But I am so so so so upset right now. All my thoughts are really jumbly right now so if anyone does actually read this, it might make little to no sense. Sorry.
Anyways.
I just feel like my boyfriend should know when I'm upset, and try to make me feel better. He usually just gets mad that I'm upset, or if something is bothering me. It bothers me more.
I don't know... I'm stressed to the max right now, I have too much stuff on my plate to deal with at the moment. Way too much. It's hard... because I don't think I've cared for someone as much as I do for him, and I guess I'm just terrified I'll lose him. I know that's a crazy far shot but I don't know why else I would get bothered over things like him going out to a party without me. Is that weird? I don't know. Maybe it's because it's 1:30am and I have an exam tomorrow morning. But when I'm upset I can't sleep. Plus I had coffee, but that was so long ago. I don't know why it's affecting me now. I'm going to try to sleep though.
On a lighter note, prom is next week and I'm leaving for Cuba in about a week. I'll just try to think about that for the next 5 days.