Simple things

It's Autumn now. I'm starting finally to realize who I am, but even still I have no idea.
I read something today, and I really liked it so I thought I would write it here. Fancy that. "Keep moving, life doesn't stop for anyone."
That's something that everyone seriously needs to think about. I know we all have our shit days. We all have had those times where we just want to sleep and forget about things for a little while. But the thing is; we can't. We have to keep going no matter how hard it might be, because if we don't things won't turn out like we would have wanted them to. It's stange that I'm writing this because I know I'm the exact kind of person that just drops things all at once and gives up. But lately I've been trying to keep on going. I'm not depressed or anything at all, actually I'm great. I just read that today, and it made me think.
On another note, I just watched Sex and the City tonight and I absolutely love that movie. I love that show. AAaaaahhh. Except it made me miss my boyfriend, because he's in Toronto right now. I'm such a sentimental person sometimes, gaaaah.

OH! The other day I was thrift shopping and I found the bestbestbest cowboy style boots ever. Seriously, I'm in love with them. 17 dollars, heeeeck yes! Also, the prettiest scarf ever, and some neat vintage jewlery. yaaaaaa!
It's bath time now. I have to read Breaking Dawn. I have to, even though it's terrible. Hahaha

fwerrrp

I was just reading my earlier blog posts... and I am so negative sometimes! But as we all know, it's hard not to be when you're upset. And the only time I seem to post is when I am. Anyways!
It's currently 12:21 am and I am exhausted, but I'm a procrastinator and haven't finished my homework yet. It's okay, though. I'm writing something for writer's craft. We have to make up statements about writing. I like this one that I came up with. "Writers lead you through the myriad magic of wordplay." Hmm.

I was planning to write a good, large chunk of blog. I'm not going to though, due to exhaustion and the fact that this homework will never get done if I do. Night!

whyyy am I so fucking insecure?

CUBANANANA

So it's officially summer. And I'm so glad. Except I already had my Cuba trip, and I want to go back. It was sooo nice. All inclusive, parties every single night, I met a whole bunch of awesome people... etc etc. Oh and I got a sweet tan. But seriously. When I came back home life just seemed so mediocre, because I didn't have any bahama mamas to drink whenever I wanted, I couldn't just lay down on a beach chair in the ocean... It made me a little sad. But I'm over it now. Minus the fact that I'm sick.. I think. I have these crazy weird stomach pains and they affect my appetite and stuff. I hope I don't have some sort of Cuban virus. Haha, yeah right. But yeah. I had a good trip.
On the plus side, I've had this entire week off from work also, and I've just been going places with my mom and with my boyfriend. It's nice. Tomorrow I'm going to the beach! I haven't been to the beach yet this summer. (Minus the whole week I spent by the ocean in Cuba, but I mean at home.) So we're going to the beach and it should be pretty nice. I can keep up my sick tan ;) hahaha
Anyways, the only reason I made this entry is because I'm up in my old computer room cleaning it, because it's a mess. And my old computer was calling my name and it's actually working a lot better than my stupid laptop right now.
So there you go. I'll post more later. Perhaps pictures from Cuba! ....Maybe.

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I don't know if anyone reads this.
But I am so so so so upset right now. All my thoughts are really jumbly right now so if anyone does actually read this, it might make little to no sense. Sorry.
Anyways.
I just feel like my boyfriend should know when I'm upset, and try to make me feel better. He usually just gets mad that I'm upset, or if something is bothering me. It bothers me more.
I don't know... I'm stressed to the max right now, I have too much stuff on my plate to deal with at the moment. Way too much. It's hard... because I don't think I've cared for someone as much as I do for him, and I guess I'm just terrified I'll lose him. I know that's a crazy far shot but I don't know why else I would get bothered over things like him going out to a party without me. Is that weird? I don't know. Maybe it's because it's 1:30am and I have an exam tomorrow morning. But when I'm upset I can't sleep. Plus I had coffee, but that was so long ago. I don't know why it's affecting me now. I'm going to try to sleep though.
On a lighter note, prom is next week and I'm leaving for Cuba in about a week. I'll just try to think about that for the next 5 days.

awaiting summer

I'm really tired but there was a cat in heat outside my window so I couldn't sleep. She's gone now, I think. I hope.
I'm reading a really good book right now. It's called The Pact by Jodi Picoult and I think that if you are reading this right now, go read that book. It's awesome.
Summer is soon. So is my trip to Cuba and I couldn't be any more excited. I just want to get all these projects out of the way, and exams. Then I have prom (wow) and Cuba.. and summer. Life will be good/amazing in all of like, three-ish weeks. :)
Oh and I've been noticing that I always have to make a reason or apology for making a video, or explain why I haven't been making one.. or whatever. My YouTube account is my corner of the internet world, and I'll do as I want on it. I do want to please my subscribers of course... it's awesome that anyone even wants to watch my videos. But it's my account and I will post whatever comes to my mind.
I don't know why I said that, haha, it just came to my mind.
The cat is gone now, I'm going to bed. Or I'll read more. Probably read til I pass out.
Night!

STRESSIN'

I have so much schoolwork to do.
I’m going to make a list. Disregard this, if you want. Or sympathize for me.
End of the year sucks.
- English ISU Essay and 15 minute presentation
- Philosophy 25 minute seminar on Isaac Newton
- Challenge and Change experiment. (This one won’t be too bad I think because I have a partner. But then I have a test on the 5th. Sdjshjkgsdhgjks)